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Well, there you have it.  It's my negative self talk that says I can't do it, I'm afraid to do it alone, I need someone else to make me ok.  Why don't I tell myself I'm safe, confident, capable?  Why so often the opposite perception - that I'm not good enough, or able enough, experienced enough?  Even where I lack experience, I'm not without mental capacity, not without situational awareness so as to make decisions based on what's before me.  I get angry with myself for this negativity towards my own capacity to do, to be, to perform what is required of me or even what I just want to do.  Frankly, I'm just tired sometimes.  I don't want to have to do it on my own.  I want to just be taken care of, to be provided for, to be loved and accepted just for who and what I am and not based on meeting some expectation.  Just to be.  It's sometimes frustrating to feel that a whole life, my whole life, must be given to some purpose, some cause, something required, expected, necessary and not just experienced without conditions.  So, now, in order to change that perception, what is required?  Even that, see, is another something I must do, that only I can do.  I must choose to turn my thoughts from negative to positive.  I must choose to let go, to trust, to do the next indicated thing, to keep it simple.  I must think, and decide how important something is.  It might be quite important.  Or not.  Put into the proper perspective, it will lose it's power to dominate my thoughts and my life.  Ok, alright, so I will take that action, for today, for now, this moment.  I will seek.  I will accept God's will, no matter what it is.  Well, there you have it.  Morning perceptions.